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Decisions Decisions Decisions...That's what I have to go through today and my head is hurting badly!
posted by Maximus Leo @ 10:57 PM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
That's what I have to go through today and my head is hurting badly!
I am an honest and brave gay man and am living the life that I so desire. Simple yet complex. Ambitious yet contented. Competitive in nature yet easy going. My life is a mosaic of my environment. This is ME, this is my life journey.
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You only have one decision to make that's important.
I'm not normally one for giving other people advice, but your blogging in the last month has made me really feel for you. So here goes some tough love. If you want to reply via email, rather than here, I'll be waiting.
- You mostly work too hard and sometimes drink too much because you're unhappy and it fills the time.
- You are unhappy because you have no personal life and because your career is not going the way you really want it too.
- This is because you are not comfortable in your own skin, and it shows.
- You fear you will never find anyone to love you.
- You will never find someone to love you unless you come out. This isn't about needing to get laid, or wanting to wear a tight white T-shirt a dance to the Scissor Sisters. This is about your long term happiness and health.
- Stop vacillating, leave work on Friday at 5pm, go shaking like a leaf to a gay bar and come out to someone. If they're any sort of human being, they'll hear you out. Then go to work at 9am on Monday and tell a work colleague who you like and trust. Then go home, look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself 'this is the start of the rest of my life'. And no matter how hard it gets, never look back. What is actually stopping you?
Well, I think the accidental activist gave you darn good advice but it's so hard to leave at 5p.m. on Friday if you have a lot of things to deal with... It's very Japanese, unfortunately. But I always decide to be sick when I want to leave early. :-) Your work will be still there...maybe, more but you can find your time to yourself so you can clear your head? :-) Good luck!
Accidental activist - Wow!! That's pretty much sum up my situation and yes I agree with you that there is nothing stopping me but is the courage thing!!! And I mean it in a humble way... I don't have the courage and will never have until I"m comfortable with myself. Yes -
i have not come out to anyone but then again I'm so lost as to what needs to be done. I'm just suffering in silence and I guess that is my choice. Thanks for your support.... :-) I tried looking for your email address but is not on your blog.....
Shigeki san - if I could only leave at 5 pm on Friday. I was sick the other day but dragged myself to work. Yes I'm a confirmed workaholic.
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Sorry if my advice was a bit blunt. I just know that I benefited from some probing words at an important time...
And don't worry - you will find the courage. The problem is not so much admitting that you're gay, but accepting that it's OK to be gay.
That's good advice from accidental activist. All I know is decision-making involves thinking skills (or is it the other way round?) and you make the choice you think is right for you.
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