Maximus Leo

I never believed.....

It's been almost 2 weeks since I last blog. I was talking to my friend this evening at my place and she mentioned that I only blog when I am miserable, lost, angry or confused. The happy blogs I had was the last couple of blogs. They have been very erratic and inconsistent in terms of writing and my emotions. I know have to write more and appreciate that I am still very much in love.

Anyway.....

I never believed in love for such a long time.
I never believed I could get out of my comfort zone and embraced myself.
I never believed I could fall in love in such a short time and give my heart away.
I never believed I could get a boy friend and him now being a significant other half within a couple of days.
I never believed I could let go my heart when he is travelling (I miss him so much!)
I never believed I could be beaming with love when I am with him.
I never believed in myself.

How things have changed since the beginning of May. When you least expect it, it will hit you hard. So far I am letting the heart go with it (but sometimes I have these little voices that take control of my inner thoughts-scary if I allow them to control me. I know have to manage them and if I have to discuss my little voices with my significant other half. At least is out in the open). If I can described the feeling - it was like a gush of wind that blew me away towards HIM and our hearts are now joined together (I think - :-) ) and now I am committed to HIM.

My stock list of events that have occured....

- 2 dates.
- 2 long business trips and 2 short ones.
- equal nights at my place and his place.
- countless text messages and emails.
- Hefty phone bills.
- Plenty of honest and open discussions
- Sex? Hmmm..... well a couple of times now.
- Hickeys - 3 to date and I am so embarrassed at work now! :-)
- Sent him off to the airport (2 x)
- Picked him from the airport - once.
- Picked him up from classes - twice
- My stuff at his place and his stuff at my place..... Sweet....:-)
- Countless exchange of gifts (more from his side....he is such a romantic lover)
- Bath/Shower (once)
- More to come.....

I now believe in myself and I;m capable of love as well. I now know how far I can fly and reach for the skies....my relationship with HIM is evidence that there is such thing as love at first sight. In the mean time I am letting my heart take charge. I am firmly a believer of faith and trust. If I didn;t have these, I wouldn't be describing these feelings.

Here is my dedication to my significant other half. Thank you for being a part of my life now.

Over and out.

Labels: Love

posted by Maximus Leo @ 12:54 AM