Maximus Leo

Amazing Week

My apologies for not visiting your blogs or even bother to tell you what has happen to me.

Since my date with HIM last week, it has just taken off from that juncture. It has gone so fast that I don't understand some parts of my emotions and being. All I know it feels good to hug him, it feels save to be with him, it just feels right now. And if I don't text him, or speak to him, I know I will be missing him so badly.

He has been on a business trip for the last few days. The distance has allowed us to assess our relationship and it has given us the space as well to decide what we want next. Lots of long distance calls, text messages and emails. It feels he has not left me at all. My heart is with him and his heart with me. For the moment it is JUST right and I like this feeling :-)

Funny, after this week, I have stopped surfing porn, I have stop checking guys (okay-a little) and have also stopped feeling sorry for being gay. All I know is that I want this relationship to be brought to the next level. He is willing to play and I'm aslo willing to lay my cards on the table. I am now letting trust and faith take this relationship to a higher level and I pray and Hope that this is the right decision for the time being. I can't bear to loose him.......and being so independent and alone for the last 20 years doesn't help either. We could both self destruct this relationship before it even started.....

For now, I am not going to think too hard. I am just going to let my heart go with the flow and with his heart, I hope we both can find the right mix that we have been searching for so long and yes finally i can tell myself I so DESERVE this feeling. Thank you GOD , Thank you UNIVERSE.

Labels: Love

posted by Maximus Leo @ 12:59 AM