Maximus Leo

Just for me

The other day as I was talking about blogging with a very dear friend of mine :-), and we talked about the beauty of this crazy activity - being anonymous and one could just hide in but adviced me to take a cautionary note as others may stumble into my blog and could figure out the person writing this.

So I did what I had to do and went back to the start of my blog and read it once again. Why did I even started it? I guess I wanted to write about my feelings and confusion of being a closeted gay person (did I just call myself gay???) and to channel my energy somewhere else.

See, I'm in the early 30s and still single but my career has been good to me. Typical of this situation is people like us channelling all our energies into work so that we can focus on it and simply brushed aside the gay thing! I even resorted to running Marathons just to get this out of my head! However, I feel that If I continue with this strategy, I'm going to hit a wall in the future so hard, then when I fall, I'm not sure how to pick myself up!! I spend countless hours on the website just surfing for porn and that's not healthy - even to oneself. Then at the end of this year, I started reading blogs and came across one - anonyboy and simply got hook to his blog. The similarities we share were just amazing and it occurred to me - maybe, I need this blog business to channel the other wasted energy. So I started blogging and the the purpose of this blog was to write for myself and not anyone else. So no censorship of my feelings and thoughts about issues or what I will write but will always use a pseudo name in place of my real name! Who knows maybe in the future, I will reveal myself (hopefully!)

Not sure how the blog will look like in a years time or whether I would have the discipline to carry out the writing because of my hectic work schedule but fingers crossed, like anything we do in this world, we strive to do our best and to deliver the results.

posted by Maximus Leo @ 9:09 AM